Ruthie Lou

Wow, it's been over a year since I've blogged..... I kinda feel like a big loser..... but, here I am, and here we go, I am recommiting myself! It's been a crazy year for me, It's been a struggle in lots of ways and quite frankly everytime I think about sitting down to blog, the thought that follows is typically something like.... "I'm going to nap/clean/feed my child/bathe my child/bathe myself/do laundry/make dinner/stare at the T.V./etc." But tonight as I rocked sweet Ruthie Lou to sleep I found myself thinking about how much I love that little bug and how I was living in a moment that I want to remember, and so I SHALL BLOG!

She is something else.... such a unique little being. She looks as if she knows something that I sure don't, something good, and I think that is pretty special. I feel like at times she's so overcome with joy that it could almost just burst out of her into a million little flecks of happiness :) and then there's the moments where you can look in those pretty little eyes and feel a peace and calm just radiate from within.

I am blessed.

Summer time.... When the living is easy.

What a great summer so far!!! Camping trip to Goblin, getaway to St. George, Spiritual rejuvination at Girl's Camp, fun memories made at Family Reunion, warm evenings spent weeding in the gardens (which, yes, I do happen to find enjoyable), motorcycle rides up Hobble Creek Canyon, boating with friends on the lake, and today.... off to Park City, my FAV, for a night with some awesome girls:) And it's only JULY!!!

Okay, so onto the inbetween.

I've been feeling a bit sorry for myself lately.... because, even with all these amazing experiences, life is hard. Olive's continuing to prove that everyday presents new challenges,

Mike may have to go work out of town again, I don't have enough money to buy new carpet, which is a serious issue for me.... and for the most difficult new challenge, we found out last week that Jace has Type 1 Diabetes. It was a tough few days, spent up at Primary Childrens, getting everything under control. But Jace is amazing. He's such a good boy, and is such a trooper. I love that kid so much. It's going to be a hard road ahead, and I have been feeling sorry for myself... which is embarassing to say. He's the one who really has to deal with this, and will continue to deal with this for the rest of his life.

So, I needed to write this post, more for myself, to recognize how lucky I am; how full of good and how beautiful my life is, and honestly, how good life is for most of us.... When I see people around me go through crap, It hurts. But then I remember, we all go through crap, and we all come out of it, eventually. So I need to remember, we'll all get through it, and if we can focus on how blessed we are and the good times, it might make the crap a bit more pleasant:)

It begins.

Hello to you, new world!

I have often thought about taking the, what seems to be, giant leap, into the "blogger life"; to join all you wonderfully expressive and inspiring people out there who have impacted me with your words. I'm not sure why I finally decided to do it..... to actually take the time to walk in the office, sit down at the computer, sign up for an account, create a title and start typing away.... but here I am, and I feel good. I feel refreshed. I feel that is my first step on a new journey that I'm excited about. I'm excited to share my feelings with you, whoever you are, maybe you're no-one, and that would be okay. I have been thinking so much about the future lately, especially the future of my beautiful, energetic, exhausting, intelligent, spunky, chunky, little Olive, and what I want and wish for her. I want and wish for her to know about this time in her life, this time in her family's life. To know what thoughts go through my mind on a daily basis, the struggles and joys Mike and I face as a partnership and family, what she teaches me from moment to moment, and the miracle's (big and small) the lord SO often pours upon us. I want and wish this for her and for her children.

Despite everything that tends to make me often feel otherwise, right now I feel blessed, I feel happy, I feel thankful. For many things.

I'm excited to begin! I guess this is going to be all for now. From what I'm hearing coming from the N.W. corner of our humble abode, Olive's nap was short lived... and I must attend to my little lollie-pop!